“Lord, you have been our dwelling place throughout all generations.” ~ Ps 90:1
A friend once gave me this verse that I feel continues to stay with me. As being a wanderer as I have been for the last few years jumping from state to state with new experiences and lives. Within the last year I have lived in three different states with families and communities in each. In the last week I went home to visit my family for my sister’s and my birthday, continuing to develop relationships in my current state of residence of Texas and I am now visiting Arkansas where I have lived the last 4 years of my life. I have had the privilege of growing and being apart of these different communities filled with God-filled people. There just comes times when my heart just seems to feel the void that is left every time I leave to go to a new place. With each new life I develop, another part of me is discovered to learn and grow but then another part of my heart runs missing when I leave that place. It can be a lonely place to not know where you belong. We can all picture some knit-pillow with the flowery designs with a quote: “Home is where the Heart is”. Well, if that is the case, I am just as homeless as ever. To have all these people that you love and all these people that have impacted your life is truly a blessing, but I still have no place I can go to feel truly connected and at home. The Lord is to be my dwelling place, where my home is, but I have yet to feel safe there but it changes slowly. What does it mean to dwell in Christ? How can I be at home when I have no place to go? It makes me wonder what Jesus meant when He said, “The foxes have holes and the birds have nests but the Son of Man has no place to rest His head.” (Luke 9:58) Is this a lifestyle I’m called to follow?
A friend once gave me this verse that I feel continues to stay with me. As being a wanderer as I have been for the last few years jumping from state to state with new experiences and lives. Within the last year I have lived in three different states with families and communities in each. In the last week I went home to visit my family for my sister’s and my birthday, continuing to develop relationships in my current state of residence of Texas and I am now visiting Arkansas where I have lived the last 4 years of my life. I have had the privilege of growing and being apart of these different communities filled with God-filled people. There just comes times when my heart just seems to feel the void that is left every time I leave to go to a new place. With each new life I develop, another part of me is discovered to learn and grow but then another part of my heart runs missing when I leave that place. It can be a lonely place to not know where you belong. We can all picture some knit-pillow with the flowery designs with a quote: “Home is where the Heart is”. Well, if that is the case, I am just as homeless as ever. To have all these people that you love and all these people that have impacted your life is truly a blessing, but I still have no place I can go to feel truly connected and at home. The Lord is to be my dwelling place, where my home is, but I have yet to feel safe there but it changes slowly. What does it mean to dwell in Christ? How can I be at home when I have no place to go? It makes me wonder what Jesus meant when He said, “The foxes have holes and the birds have nests but the Son of Man has no place to rest His head.” (Luke 9:58) Is this a lifestyle I’m called to follow?
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