“I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord.”
Psalm 27: 13-14
Weeks in and weeks out, I have been aboard the roller coaster of neurotransmitters, memories, and emotions. Not that this has been any different than any other time in my life, but I can say this past week has left me a little more than motion sick. My heart is sick, and once again I loosen my grip on the hoe and hesitate in sow more of the same seeds. I see this verse as my anthem of this last semester and I’m praying that the end, a glorious end is very near. My heart is desperately seeking for God to show Himself true to His Word not just in the Bible but in the words spoken through my companions linked arm in arm. I just latch onto those words that echo over and over. “Kelley, my God is good.” I want to see and experience the goodness of the Lord and live with those you are really alive. So I cling to these words/seeds, throw them into the soil again, before God’s throne and ask for the Lord to bring the rain (Is. 30:23). Otherwise, my heart is blown away with despair like ash in the wind. So wait I will, take a breath and let my heart open its door to courage and hope that I will gaze upon the beauty of the Lord in the land of the living.
Psalm 27: 13-14
Weeks in and weeks out, I have been aboard the roller coaster of neurotransmitters, memories, and emotions. Not that this has been any different than any other time in my life, but I can say this past week has left me a little more than motion sick. My heart is sick, and once again I loosen my grip on the hoe and hesitate in sow more of the same seeds. I see this verse as my anthem of this last semester and I’m praying that the end, a glorious end is very near. My heart is desperately seeking for God to show Himself true to His Word not just in the Bible but in the words spoken through my companions linked arm in arm. I just latch onto those words that echo over and over. “Kelley, my God is good.” I want to see and experience the goodness of the Lord and live with those you are really alive. So I cling to these words/seeds, throw them into the soil again, before God’s throne and ask for the Lord to bring the rain (Is. 30:23). Otherwise, my heart is blown away with despair like ash in the wind. So wait I will, take a breath and let my heart open its door to courage and hope that I will gaze upon the beauty of the Lord in the land of the living.
1 comments:
"I have been aboard the roller coaster of neurotransmitters, memories, and emotions."
Sounds familiar. You do not struggle alone. I love you. :D
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